3 posts tagged “cleanse”

Lemoncello 3

I have read that whatever toxins that are showing themselves in the form of irritability or headaches or whatever other form typically forgo their hold on the body upon the next elimination (usually the following morning). 

The sleep was not as restful after the first night but after I did another salt water flush on Day 2 and discovered neon yellow waste, the symptoms from the following day vanished. 

I will admit that I had some irritability as well yesterday but the headaches have completely subsided (at least for now).  And yesterday I was able to function and move about, take care of errands, read without much thought to food. 

I did have some moments, especially last night when I went to see a film with Tak and I smelled the overpowering flavor of buttery, salty popcorn infiltrating every fiber and molecule of the movie house, that I wanted to eat.  But I merely sipped a bit from my water and it always seemed to pass.  I was treated to be able to watch Ashes of Time Redux by Wong Kar Wai.  He is a master and how he and his crew do the cinematography is absolutely stunning, not to mention the exquisite story and acting.  What I noticed as well was how impeccable the lighting was throughout the film.  A must see.  (Here's an interview with WKW about the remaking of the film).

I recall sitting on the couch yesterday and feeling an overwhelming feeling of vitality and serenity.  It is like my body is lighter and feels very secure with itself at the moment.  I was speaking to Tak about some things and I felt like I was completely in tune with what he was saying.  I did not have any distractions.  My mind was not dwelling on several other issues like it normally is. 

I am not saying this is some sort of panacea but I am simply explaining the feelings and emotions that I am experiencing. 

I slept like a baby last night.  My sleep is magical. 

Now I am into Day Three and the day is in front of me and I feel ready to take it on.  No work today so I think I'm going to go see another movie.  One more week of this cleanse.  Hmm.

Lemoncello 1

Fortunately and by no coincidence I arranged this cleansing to run parallel to having two (possibly three) days off in a row to kick off the fasting. 

Food cravings popped into my head randomly as a last ditch effort.  It made me focus on the fact that I use food to fill in the time.  To overcome boredom.  Have nothing else to do? Eat.  Want to hang out? Let's go eat.  Food, even when I'm not really that hungry.  I passed by one of my favorite Thai restaurants and almost cried after I realized I instinctively just about set foot in the door to order some Pad Thai.  It was almost a subconcious move. 

That's what life has been like usually.  Have an need? Fill it.  Whether that "it" comes in the form of food or drinking, smoking or some other non-beneficial behavior.  A lifetime of reaction and placation.  Not much room for deliberation and reasoned thinking.  Life has been really nothing but a non-ending fun-filling experience.  And I'm getting to the point where I'm not sure that's what life is about on any serious level.  Not that life should not be enjoyable.  But there are responsible and important things to take into consideration.  Like other people and my own health.  Moving away from flippancy and The Peter Pan Syndrome.

I actually craved Blue Water Seafood Market and Grill.  The Sea Bass sandwich that I had last time with Niamh on the day that she got her new apartment.  And I don't really even eat fish. 

Perhaps I will after the fast is over.  I spent a lot of time yesterday seriously contemplating my diet.  Mostly deliberating over what I dislike about the current trends and frankly why I am on this cleanse in the first place.  A life of grease-soaked fried shit.  Bacon (which I love).  Meat, meat, meat.  Very little vegetables.  Some fruits.  Coffee, tea, alcohol, cigarettes.  Not that I digest the latter, but the point is that my diet is essentially garbage. 

I picked up several books on vegetarianism.  I do not know if this is what I want to do, but at least I want to study it more to understand if it is a viable option for me.  I believe the reason that I don't pursue this food lifestyle is out of ignorance and because I look at food as such a creature comfort.  Not something that will prolong my life or energy but something that subsists the moment that I am in.  That is the integral problem: Non-Thinking.  Merely going with what I was raised to eat.  I was brought up to be a Jehovah's Witness being fed spiritual garbage all of my life.  It makes sense that I would be physically fed the same.  But I no longer succumb to the doctrines of the religious sect.  Yet perhaps I still succumb to the food aspect because of some sort of deranged penance.  Do I have dark areas of guilt for not being a part of the religion? Do I feel that perhaps I do not deserve better? I'm not sure I think this way consciously.  In fact, this is the first time I have really thought about it.  Perhaps on some deeper, non-conscious way I am acting out in this way. 

I texted Niamh yesterday with three words: I AM HUNGRY.

She wrote back: NO YOU'RE NOT.  DRINK MORE LEMONADE AND KEEP YOUR HANDS BUSY.

Both Niamh and Sarah are doing this as well.  They reported that they were physically fine yesterday.  I am a day behind them but felt by 9:00 P.M like utter shit.  I could hardly see anything my head hurt so intensely.  I was finishing the third season of Grey's Anatomy, another vice that I have allowed myself to get involved with.  I began to watch season four and shut it off after about fifteen minutes. 

Why am I wasting my time like this? What benefit are these series benefiting me? I am giving up my time because I am bored and because it is again another comfort that I have put myself into.  Following lives of fictional people that I do not even like.  Maybe this cleanse will be flushing out more than my bowel.  Perhaps it will also be flushing the head junk as well.  At any rate I have this sudden disgust for that show and the others that I have been watching on a regular basis. 

What's next?